Aka. "Destination Anywhere", "The Boy and Girl from County Bavaria"... After a very intense year in Würzburg (Germany), I'm back in Salamanca. I probably won't have that many experiences to write, but there's always an excuse to post a new entry!

22.

After the final shake announcing the summit of pleasure, Marco raised his head slowly, letting his girlfriend recover. He then kissed his way up from her crotch to her neck. Johanna smiled, her breaths slowing down. Once he was lying on his side next to her, she snuggled up to him.
Marco contemplated her bare body, admiring her perfection. Yet this time there was a certain spot he couldn't help but look at. He had always loved how athletic and graceful she was and deep down felt ashamed of his own figure in comparison to hers; however, now her rounded stomach had become his favourite place. The bump wasn't really big yet, but it stuck out enough to be seen, especially when she was naked. She would often complain that she couldn't wear the clothes she liked because of her tummy, but to him that was exactly the reason why he particularly enjoyed watching her dressing. To him, her belly represented the greatest expression of their mutual love, an unbreakable bond that would keep them forever as one. Softly he caressed it, giving his yet unborn child some of the love he had just been giving its mother.
"You're so beautiful" he whispered as his fingertips continued stroking over her stomach.
She didn't reply with words. All she did was smile and sit up slightly to kiss his cheek. He always knew how to make her feel like the prettiest woman in the world.
Marco's gaze travelled from the temporary home of his child to his lover's green eyes. Everything about her was perfect, from the tender look she was giving him to her laughter, through the way she made love. That brought a certain thought to his head, a doubt he had been having for some time.
"How does it feel?"
"What?" she raised her head slightly.
The Swede swallowed.
"To... make love while you're..."
"Oh" she grinned, amused by his curiousity and shyness as he asked the question "It's quite intense, actually. I mean, that area gets really sensitive, so you feel everything a lot more. And it feels great."
"Seriously? That's good to hear."
"Well, there had to be a bright side to the pregnancy, right?" she chuckled.
He didn't laugh. The way he stared at her made her feel guilty. She lifted her hand and touched his cheek tenderly.
"I was just kidding" she explained "In fact, now I wonder why women complain so much about it. Besides the lack of caffeine, it's not that bad. You don't feel much most of the time once you're done with the morning sickness."
"And what about... what's coming next?"
Approximately two months had gone by since she had announced that she was having a baby. Everyone had welcomed the news happily and so had they. Johanna herself seemed pretty satisfied, and nothing had changed at all in their relationship. However, they hadn't spoken about it seriously, just the two of them. Marco still didn't know how his girlfriend felt about motherhood.
"I was a bit scared at first, but not anymore" she responded "I think I'm doing quite a good job getting used to the idea. Besides, this child couldn't have chosen a better moment."
"What do you mean?"
The young girl shrugged. She trailed her finger over his arm.
"I'm an adult. The semester is over, so I have a couple of months to rest and then all I have to do is write my thesis. I have plenty of time for the baby. Not to mention that I'm counting on the best possible person to help me... you" she mumbled against his lips before kissing him.
He returned the kiss, his heart filled with joy. She would never stop surprising him with her maturity.
"So you're happy?" he spoke, almost into her mouth.
Johanna nodded.
"Honestly, having kids was never one of my plans - especially not at twenty-one! It was more like a possibility in the faraway future. But since we started dating, I knew that if I ever decided to have children, you would be the father."

"Surprise!"
Still half-asleep, Sharon sat up and rubbed her eyes, which were not yet fully open. Her roommate's scream almost scared her. Finally, once she got used to the excess of light in the room, she could make Flo's silhouette out. The giantess was standing by the door, holding a tray with a plate, cutlery and two glasses on it.
"Flo? What's this?" she asked in a sleepy voice, blinking at that sight.
"Breakfast!" the other woman replied happily as she sat down next to her at the edge of the bed, handing her the tray.
The brunette stared at her breakfast. Pancakes with chocolate syrup, freshly squeezed orange juice and a cup of tea. Everything smelled delicious. Then her eyes moved to Flo questioningly.
"Why?"
An alarm had been activated in her head. Her roommate and former friend with benefits having such a romantic detail wasn't a good sign. Yet Flora simply smiled casually and shrugged.
"I never really thanked you for letting me move in with you and thought this could be a good way to do so."
False alarm. Sighing in relief on the inside, the Dutch girl smiled to her friend and began cutting a piece of pancake.
"Smells lovely" she said.
Her lips curled into a thankful smile. Sharon began eating happily. Yes, it tasted as great as it smelled. However, the fact that Flo didn't move and just continued watching her made her rather nervous.
"Wanna have some?" she tried to break the ice.
"No, thanks. I've already had breakfast. This is just for you to enjoy."
There's something weird about this all, her suspicious mind said to her. Watching her small spoon create an eddy around the teabag, she grinned skeptically.
"Now seriously, what makes you act this sweet?"
Flora sighed on the inside. There was no point in pretending anymore.
"Alright, you caught me. I wanted to talk to you about something."
There it was. Sharon cursed her intuition. And she cursed it twice, as she was pretty sure she knew what was coming next.
Five days had gone by since the incident. Possessed by her anger, she had let herself go and slept with her friend and roommate. She had tried to make it clear that it was only a one-time thing, just meaningless sex to distract herself from her real feelings. No-one would ever mention it again and there would be no second part. Yet it was useless to expect Flo to forget about it just like that. She wasn't that kind of girl. And, sadly, neither was Sharon.
"We said it never happened, Flo."
"But it did" the taller woman retorted "I've been thinking about this whole thing in the past few days, and I've decided that we can't just leave it all behind. We're living together."
"Exactly, we're roommates now. That's exactly why we should forget about it."
"Not at all! You've been acting weird since we met at the Rainbow Garden that night. I need to know why. I can't live with someone I don't even understand."
"What's there to understand?" the brunette sighed "I was mad, so I needed to let it all out and had sex with you. I told you it wouldn't mean anything and you were fine with it."
"I was, until I started to see that there was more to it than meets the eye."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
Flo took a deep breath. If only Sharon wasn't so much on the defensive. Talking to her was difficult when she wasn't ready to reason. Yet she was a patient woman.
"Leaving the drunken moments aside, first you open your heart to me and tell me how lonely you are. Then, the next time we meet, you offer me a room in your place. And don't get me started on all the subtle flirting we've had since I moved here."
"There was no flirting at all!"
"Whatever" Flo rolled her eyes "But I don't think all those looks and everything else were just friendly gestures. So, let's move on to the next chapter. You get pissed off because your ex is now happily dating her ex and instead of yelling at her, burning her photos or curling into a ball and crying, you choose to almost rape me. Coincidence?"
"Why do you have to make this so hard?" Sharon whined "I'm just trying to be friends with you."
"Is that really what you want? To be my friend? Well, I don't recall having sex with my friends just for fun."
Another sigh was released from Sharon's throat. She clearly hated having that conversation, especially while her breakfast was getting cold. Unfortunately, giving up was not Flo's plan.
"It was a mistake, I know" the brown-eyed beauty finally admitted "And I'm sorry for putting you through this all."
"I don't want an apology, Sharon. I want to understand you. I want to know what's on your mind. What do you want from me?"
"Look, I really like you. You're gorgeous, a great friend and an amazing lover. I guess feelings don't disappear that easily even after breaking up with someone. But it wouldn't be wise to start anything with you."
"Why not?"
"Because I don't think I'm ready yet. As much as I hate being alone, I'm afraid of getting hurt. More than that, I don't want to hurt anyone again. In less than one year I've broken Tarja's heart, lost you and used Mike. This is not who I am. Perhaps what I need is to be on my own for some time until I've cleared my mind."
"See? This is exactly what I told you about knowing what you want."
"I just know I don't want to suffer or be the cause of anyone's pain. Believe me when I tell you that I wish I could be with you, but I'm scared of ruining everything completely."
A compassionate smile played on the taller woman's lips. She took Sharon's hand and touched it softly.
"It's fine. Thanks for opening up to me, I appreciate your honesty more than you think" she stood up slowly "Enjoy your breakfast. And if you ever change your mind or feel ready to give me a chance, I'll be one step behind you. On the other side of this wall, more precisely."