Aka. "Destination Anywhere", "The Boy and Girl from County Bavaria"... After a very intense year in Würzburg (Germany), I'm back in Salamanca. I probably won't have that many experiences to write, but there's always an excuse to post a new entry!

BLOG IS CLOSING DOWN!

Let's be brutally honest - no-one ever gave a damn about this blog. That's why I've decided to leave it. I'll consider whether to delete the information I've posted so far or not, but I'm NOT updating anymore. The Spanish version will still stay online and I'll continue writing on it, so if you speak the language, you'll be welcome to read and comment.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

"The world now opens its eyes and sees the dawning of a new day"

(Within Temptation, "Ice Queen")

A new year has come. Is this the beginning of a new age? What will 2012 bring? Only time will tell. In any case, I have to keep up with the tradition and post an entry about what this event means to me.

Last year my New Year's post wasn't exactly the most optimistic one. I had been going through hard times, so it was difficult to write something cheerful. In fact, I began 2011 as what I like to call an 'emotional terrorist'. I had declared war on the whole world, mainly anything related to feelings. Ohne Seele was the only thing I would hold on to. Luckily, about a month later someone turned up and changed my mind. Since then, I guess you could say I've been living in the clouds. It's ironic to think that love, one of the things I had criticized and hated most, was exactly what saved me from the darkness of my world.

If I had to choose a phrase to describe the year that has just ended, it would be "Overcoming my fears." Not only because I finally chose to open up (and introduced my love to my parents!), but also because I made decisions I had always been scared of. The nomad settled down, as I said a few entries ago. Taking the cards' advice, I stopped running away and dared to do what I never thought I would - stay voluntarily in one place for more than two years in a row. As for the third fear, the moment to overcome it came a few months later. After my masters' course, I began searching for a job. Silly as it might sound, I was terrified of working, as I see it as the end of my youth and this century's way of slavery. Nevertheless, I did struggle to find a job and I did find not one, but two. While one of them didn't last for long or make me too happy, it got me a good amount of money to survive, so it did the trick. On the other hand, the other job, which I hope to continue doing from next week on, is something I enjoy and believe I'm good at. Besides, I've realized that it's possible to work and still have a life.

Needless to say, Ohne Seele has been standing tall in spite of all difficulties and 2011 was also the birth of StarShade, one of my biggest treasures :) So yeah, all in all, I can say it's been quite a good year.

To be honest, I'm scared of this new year that has just began as much as I am curious to see what it brings. It's not easy to stay optimistic while hearing everywhere how hard everything is going to be, not to mention the whole "the-world-ends-on-December-21st"-crap. However, over a year ago I baptised myself as the Phoenix and I intend to live up to that name. I won't let anything or anyone bring me down and do whatever I can to stay stronger than steel.

Any wishes for New Year? I'd rather not make any, or at least say them aloud (you know I'm damn superstitious). Last year I asked for nothing but guidance, and everything turned out pretty well, so I guess I'm sticking to that strategy. I'll just assume whatever comes will be for the better and try to see the bright side. As for resolutions... well, apart from everything I've mentioned before, I'd like to post on this blog every month. In any case, I don't want to talk too much about New Year's resolutions, since that seems to jinx them somehow ;) So all I'll say is that I hope 2012 is as great as 2011 and wish you all the best for this new beginning! <3